Another Goodbye

Going to leave Melville in hours. I have just said goodbye to everybody, Lyndsey, WIlliam and my host mom, Geri.

Surprisingly, nothing dramatic happened. Kiss, hugs and goodbye. That's all.

I did't cry, Oh my Gosh, I can't believe it!

I WILL miss you guys. I love you WIllIAM. I will never ever see you again, but I have you in my heart. You will forget about 'Chia' after three days, but you are a memory, which I will keep inside my heart, ETERNALLY.

I remember you told me about your dolphine dream. I remember the time we play catch and all those silly games together, I remember the way I forced you eating medicine when you are sick...YES. I do have a collection od 'YOU AND ME'.

I love you, soo much. This is a kind of love, which I could have only learnt from this stupid Au Pair thing....

Though, I am still young, another station of life in my journey.

So, seeya.. perhaps, I will hear something from you in my destination.

LOVE YOU. MUAKS.

Ciao New York and Long Island...

Tanning

"Fair, Slim, Long Silky Hair"--- That's the 3 basic typical conditions of being 'Beautiful' in most Asian's world. Though, in a country like Malaysia, which is basically having that kind of 'eternal summer' weather, it's nearly impossible for the girls to stay fair all the time. As a result...we use tonnes of WHITENING lotions for different part of our bodies. We carry umbrella to shelter from sunlight rather than rain drops. We wear long sleeve jacket even when the temperature is hitting 100 degree celcius ( Yes, we love to burn ourselevs in hell) and we avoid going out in the day time, sneaking out and hanging out with friends only in the evening...

All of the actions mentioned above are actually bizzare to people in US. At here, majority of the whites hate being so 'white'. When the summer's here, they will try whatever ways to tan themseleves. They would jog topless (guys of course! :P) for hours under the hot sun, using tanning lotion, wearing bikini and expose themselevs to the sunlight at the beach for hours, sitting under the hot sun to read a book while wearing sun glasses in the afternoon... Basically just do everything under the hot sun to get burnt...Weird? hmm.. well, I guess this is due to human's nature. We crave for whatever we couldn't get naturally...

I had my frreezing Winter with thick snow and a 'not-that-warm' Spring in New York. Then now, Summer! I was fair (or maybe yellow?! -_-) during the winter, really really fair until I couldn't recognize my own skin colour! 0_o However, now I really look like a black girl. I am tanned because I burn myself under the sun in the swimming pool EVERYDAY, even if it's 12 o'clock in the noon, whenever I have my own free time.

Yes, I look ugly now. Like what Protocol said, "Porky and Black". But, who cares? Never in life I would dare to even 'think' that I will be able swim in a private swimming pool. Now, the wishful 'thought' actually became true.

Melville is the richest area in Long Island so it's actually common for the residents here to have swimming pool in their backyard. The pool is opened during summer. So... Here I am...

It was 12 o'clock noon time. I was about to jump into the pool.

Nice pool! Gosh! I can swim ANYTIME I want to without having anyone sharing it! It's owned! It's MINE!

After swimming like a frog for one hour. I was TANNED! But, I really enjoy the feeling of having my Own pool. When I get tired, I just walked the dog or read a book under the sunlight for a while, then jump back to the deep blue water, swim until I satisfy.

I allow the sunlight to tan me in whatever way he wants to as I won't have this kind of chance anymore...I'm leaving soon..really soon...

Home

There's only one place on earth, which you call it a 'HOME'.

I need a pair of wings now. I want to fly back home now...NOW

A book for girls

Reading is my greatest hobby in life. I can spend hours in a bookshop, without realising how the time passed by. Living in US, the greatets thing is that the books here are cheap and huge bookshops are available everywhere. So that day, I went to Barnes and Noble with Protocol, one of the books on the shelf caught my attention.

It's "The myth of you and me".

Nowadays, it's really hard to get a writer who wrote about friendship. Well, generally, relationship between couples conqueres. This book is just different. It impressed me through the vivid description of a friendship between two girls since they were 14 years old.

One character in the book noted,

"Woman always choose man over another woman..."
"There's no such thing as friendship forever between women..."

Believe it or not? It's up to you. The book explains everything about women's friendship. It's not merely about choosing man over woman, it's about trust, honesty, forgive and forget.

My conclusion after reading the book -- Friendship between girls are fragile, we need to work extra hard to make it works. Watering it with trust and commitment, it's going to turn out great and who knows, lasts forever, perhaps.

Man's nothing. Boyfriend's no big deal.

A true friend tops them all.

Go read it! It's awesome.

Acceptance

After all those stupid and nerve-wrecking process for months, FINALLY, I got accepted.

I will be able to further my study in the master degree of counselling psychology, marriage and family therapy, at this coming September.

Is this a good news? uh huh! I guess so. Though, meanwhile, a LOT more new challenegs awaiting me ahead. I have to fly to another foreign land again, and start everything ALL OVER again...

When choosing between New York City and California, I chose the latter, due to a lot of reasons, in terms of monetary, lifestyle, environment, subject, schools, schedule...

I am not sure if that was a good choice. But, frankly speaking, weeks ago, I regretted for that and actually wanted to remain in New York City. You know that, humans are afraid of starting new life and moving to a new area. Nobody likes the feeling of helplessness in an alien place with aliens speaking foregin language, and leading a different lifestyle. Seriously, we know NOBODY there! Santa Ana, what the hell is going on there? we have no freaking idea.

But then, after a long talk with Protocol, both of us decided to move to California. It's really a COMPLICATED process, to apply for another university. The paperwork is just FREAKING idiot and time-consuming.

So, what now? Saying goodbye? Changing Visa? Booking air-ticket? Find a place to stay in CA? Get a job? Thinking of Legal and illegal issue?

NO CLUE! Basically I have to do all the mentioned things above.

How nice could that be, if things are as easy to be done as writing them down.

Protocol has been bothered by something. My situation is not that difficult but I don't feel good, too.

After thinking for the entire night, I think I have to write this post.

You are not ALONE. NO matter what the problem is, we WILL face it together! Remember the time I was under rematch? I was like a zombie without a single soul, packing my stuff while waiting for SOMEBODY to call, saying that he or she was going to take me in. I was prepared to go back to Malaysia, but then miracle happened at the very LAST minute. Do you remember the magical Wednesday afternoon? When I called you from Los Angeles and told you that I got a new host family in Long Island? We shouted and screamed in happiness.

The freaking moment, you were with me, I will never forget, never ever.

Now, we got what we really want, our DREAM is nearer. GO for it.

I will be with you and you will be with me.

We can do it! Believe in yourself then you can do anything.

So, SMILE. Yell "Hurray"! WE are flying to california!!!

YES! Life will get better, after going through hardship. we must be strong. For some reason, maybe we are fated to fly WEST, cogitate deeper, don't you think so?

Never give up, PROMISE?! Say yes.

Six Flags

I love theme park and roller coaster, ever since I was little. I remember seeing one Documentary about World's highest roller coaster in Discovery channel years ago. It was basically about the world scariest and most challenging roller coasters, including the orginal one, which was made of wood.

At that time, I was thinking, "Wow, they look cool! How nice could that be if I am able to ride on anyone of them..."

Basically, I am a chicken. Though, I am not a regular one. I am weird and love to challenge my limits even if it's going to scare the shit out of me. So, when my pal, Protocol told me about SIX FLAG, the world-renowned theme park which has been popular for ages, I pleaded her to drive both of us there, since it's only half an hour away from her area in New Jersey.

Yes...Our scary journey begins here... I won't say much here, basically just want to show you guys some nice photoes. For more information, please refer to Protocol's latest entry:p

These brilliant creations made ours blood ran cold. Man, Scary but You HAVE to TRY it.

NO KIDDING. We rode on MOST of the freaking high roller coasters, which are AT LEAST Thousands feets away from the ground. The wooden roller coaster is the UTMOST deadly scary thing I ever tried in my entire life. Try to open your eyes when you reach the peak and seeing it going down. Hmmm.. I guarantee you, you will be able to taste the cloud hanging in the sky and you won't be able to open your mouth to scream, cause normally a human will go hysterical seeing ownself falling down from the sky.

Now, some interesting and amazing lanscapes. :p







We have superheroes here! See...Batman's car!

And, we have CHARMING and EXOTIC HEROES to PICK us Up! Protocol could hear the GREEN Hero's heartbeat, no KIDDING! Gosh! Sorry, we are TOO heavy!

Time to say goodbye. Damnit, we paid about 50 US dollars each but didn't really have time to UTILIZE it. hmm.. never mind, next time. The last picture, the greatest one. Protocol and I.

MUAKS! Love you. Because of you, my life's perfect.

Done

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Devil, get burnt in hell.