Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Wedding Bells

The die is cast, come weal, come woe
Two lives are joined together,
For better or for worse, the link
Which naught but death can sever.
The die is cast, come grief, come joy.
Come richer, or come poorer,
If love but binds the mystic tie,
Blest is the bridal hour.

--Mary Weston Fordham


October 14, 2007 (Sunday). I heard the sounds of the wedding bells...the melody went across the boundary of region, passing through the pacific ocean...


The joy, love and blessing...


Jubilant Dinner...


You and Me, Now and Forever...


Tears trickled down my cheeks, when I was looking at the photos. I missed my dearest brother's wedding. Once in a lifetime, I missed it forever...

Deep inside my heart, I pray for the couple, may you two smothered by bliss, showered by love, overwhelmed by happinesss...

Not asking for fairy-tale-like happily ever after, but eternal companionship, with fidelity and dedication.

I wasn't appearred in any of the photos, I absented from the whole ceremony. This is a regret, which will stay with me forever...

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

The Moon

I like looking at the moon. It doesn't necessary to be a full moon, I don't like the shape of circle that much.

Moon radiates with gentle warm light, appearing like a loving mother in the sky.

The strong wind was blowing; but, the moon was hanging still in the sky, exuding amiable charm from the darkness.

Walking along the sidewalk, inhaling the cold air.
Wind moved across the face. Though, it's hard to feel the freeze, the love of the moon was overwhelming.

I love the moon. Thank you. MUAKS.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

To Linly

I would like to dedicate this post to one very special friend, Linly. First of all, I have to apolozise to her, I am sorry, Linly, I was forced to steal one photo from your blog as this post is written just for you. If you detest this idea, please feel free to tell me, I will take the photo down.

She's a friend whom I have 'really' known for like one year. Knowing her is actually a miracle and destiny, I guess. It's funny to recall ours friendship. In fact, she's a friend, whom I have never met in real life. Now, lend me your ears and I will tell you guys about our story.

August 2006, after knowing the exact flight and departure date to US, I was kinda nervous and anxious about everything. The unseen future with numerous scary possibilities freaked me out. To ease my heart, I logged into a special au pair Yahoo group created by the agency, posting some of my worries while searching if there's anyone out there who would have the same departure date as mine. Unfortunately, I was destinied to fly alone, though, I saw one girl posted some of her concerns, too and she was going to fly for US on the 11th September, it's like two weeks ahead of me. Immediately, I wrote an e-mail to her, asking her about the feeling and preparation. She replied with a lot of kind words as we shared the same mixed feeling of leaving homeland and staying with weird Americans.

At last, she reached Michigan. Still, we kept in touch. After two weeks, I reached California. Then, I got to talk with her over the phone. Out of the blue, in one of the conversations we had, we talked about our background information. Then, HELL! Only at that particular moment, I knew that she actually had her study in the same university as mine, and we actually were in the same faculty. And, we studied the same course but different major.Then, I asked for photos-exchange and discovered the utmost shocking thing-We had certain subjects in the same classes before and she sat besides me in the lecture hall before!

Starting at that moment, it's hard for me to not believe in something we call 'Destiny'. Life's really amazing, isn't it? She was once so near to me but I didn't really care. After travelling more than 9000 miles away from home, I actually get to know her in this foreign land. The seed of friendship was growing rapidly since then. We talked on the phone and chatted online. She tried to be there for me when I had to deal with horrible Americans. She showed her concern and care during my lonely ThanksGiving and Christmas. Besides, she tried her best to help me throughout the rematching process. I was really touched.

Like what she had mentioned in my comment's section, "I chased you all the way from California, New York, New Jersey, and Georgia..." Yeah, she tried her very best to meet me but we couldn't do it due to the discrepancy of dates, holiday and also air tickets. Later on, I moved from West to East, and then East to South. Now I am back to the West Coast again, still, I hasn't seen her in real life yet. Unfortunately, I am not sure when will I ever have chance to see her as she flew back to Malaysia weeks ago. 0_o

I am definitely not happy about everything. I am sorry for my frequent moving. I really want to see you in real life. Remember the time when I was in georgia? We tried so hard to plan for a trip together. Florida, Texas, South or North carolina... We searched online, planning to meet each other at the airport. But then, due to the costly expenses, we painfully call it off.

So, now she's like living in the other planet, far from reaching. I know that she has a hard time readjusting her life, the reversed culture shock was killing her. Though, no worries Linly, things will be alright. You are the brave tortise right? You will certainly outrun those stupid rabbits. Hang on, I miss you. You are one of the special friend whom I will keep in my heart forever. Maybe when I am back home someday, I can see you in real life. Be prepared for a big warm hug. MUAKS.

All the best in life. US is a place for us to realise most of ours dream. You have most of yours came true, that's a blessing. :)

LOVE YOU!!